𝑩𝒂𝒄𝒌 𝑨𝒈𝒂𝒊𝒏 𝑳𝒐𝒗𝒆𝒍𝒊𝒆𝒔𝒔💗

October 17, 2025

𝑩𝒂𝒄𝒌 𝑨𝒈𝒂𝒊𝒏 𝑳𝒐𝒗𝒆𝒍𝒊𝒆𝒔𝒔💗

Heyya everyone,

Kinda shy to return to writing since it's been a long time since I wrote something that are worth your reading. I apologize that it took me a period of time to fully back to being myself again. You don't know how many times I read my past blogs and how I missed writing and expressing my views and inspirations to all of you though I don't know if there's any of you out there but no worries, this website isn't going to be stopped or be on a hiatus anymore.

I have started to plan and organize everything that I want to share with you guys, so let this blog be the first one to restart back Farewell Love. Today's entry will just be relaxing and not very intense sesh for me to share. To recap back my life for the past year of not updating anything is that I had finished my Diploma back in February this year and officially started my bachelor's degree in early April if I remember it correctly. Now I'm in my second semester of my degree so another two years before I actually had to step into the working environment. Kinda scared there because my internship is going to be a year while having my classes online. Can you imagine how stressful it is to juggle between the two of that? I can't though, just hope that I'll survive it.

I didn't plan on writing anything actually today, but I had the urge suddenly after a very eventful week maybe I just need to sit down and start typing my thoughts and here I am, complaining to you guys about how I am still alive in this moment. Also, my blogs are still posted at the same time every Friday at 8 a.m. like usual excluded this entry of course since it was unplanned. Worried not, next time, it will be just like old times.

Uwu, another exciting is, my convocation is finally happening in early December, Yay! Actually, I'm having a headache just thinking about the cost and all the other planning that I have to do. Don't worry, I will document every single struggle I'm having so that you guys would share my sentiment too. Totally not ready for that. Just spilling everything got me this many words, how much I miss this feeling. Oh! Another thing, my novel are also back on track, but I have not had the publish date yet but stay tuned in Wattpad, I'll update there or on my blog. But that is still a work in progress so don't expect it soon. I will only focus on my blogs for now since I had abandoned it for such a long time.

One more thing! I am officially back to my fangirl era! Yayy! Lots of good new boy bands that debuted but never in my life would I had known that I would stanned; Seventeen and Ateez. Damn, let me tell you, these guys are a whole another level. The reason I left that era because most of the songs doesn't have that Korean pop feel anymore, so my interest towards it lessens over the years. Then, I found across these two special groups, Bam! Their music? It's what I miss all those years before. Since I lost Moonbin from Astro, it's been scary to return back, it hit me hard that year but I'm glad that I got that rhythm back. How I miss those days when their songs played over and over again. These guys motivate me more than I could ever do myself. K-pop do leave some special memories for all their stans and I'm really grateful to them. Seeing them struggle and get back up serves as inspiration for me to do the same and have the same principles and life goals as them. Part of me coming back is also because of them, so I truly appreciated and love them as fans of course.

I think I recap almost everything so as always let's fully initiate this comeback my ending it with quotes and poetry!

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Fi Amanillah; something I always remember is to never lose that kind of belief. Why fret over those things when He is the best Planner in the whole universe. Trust that good things are waiting to happen after you have weathered that stormy night. Sunshines always shone through those dark clouds to reach new horizons and mountains. Even the smallest crack will be found. Believe that you will and can reach the shore after drowning for a long time. You will have your ups and downs but if you insist on staying there, then all hope will be lost. I used to believe that hope is nothing compared to strategically plan everything, but after wasting years drowning in it, I just want to reach the surfaced again, to feel the wind, the fresh air and new beginnings by concluding that there's nothing I can do but sincerely leave it behind me. Your past is never going to haunt you if you believe that it won't, if you let it be then, sooner or later it will eat you alive. Better end it and leave it all behind you. Take it as a lesson and shine through again. These words would never work on you if you don't have the determination, belief and trust that you will get through it. It all came down to you in the end.

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Cold as the sea storms,

Drowning in its crying of agony,

Time went without waiting,

There it stood, waiting.

Then the sun came,

Shining it way through the cracks in the storms,

Reaching it, calling it, but it didn't move.

Far away from it, A person walked towards it.

Without warning, it screamed painfully.

But she didn't stop her footsteps.

She held out her hand,

But when it touches her, it burns so bad, but she didn't want to take it back.

because she knows, what it went through is far more painful than this.

Slowly, the cracks in it shattered revealing a little girl.

The winds around them blew beautifully and the sea had calm down.

She smiled at the little girl and held out her hand again,

This time the touch didn't hurt but it felt different.

The little girl looks different.

For she too had reached the surfaced of the sea.

Every storm that had brewed, there's always a silver lining behind it.

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Phew, finally, we reached the end of this entry. It was truly fun and a pleasure to be able to write for you lovelies out there again. Thank you for staying till the end of this story. Till next time, lovelies.

Farewell,

Love.

Here's todays aesthetic!